So, tonight was really emotional for me. In February, on my campus, there was a week dedicated to body awareness, and one of those nights we were supposed to have a candlelight vigil. Well, it got snowed out and was rescheduled for tonight.
For those of you who don’t know, I struggled with anorexia for a while, and last year was the absolute lowest i’ve ever been. I never want to see that person I was, ever again. Its scary, looking back, but when you’re all caught up in it you don’t think anythings wrong.
The speaker tonight started talking about her eating disorder, how she got diagnosed with OCD, how she was a ballet dancer, being a psych major. That’s exactly me. It just made me start to cry and think about everything I’ve been through. My best friend was right by me the whole time, and a lot of my sisters gave me huge hugs and kisses. I love those girls more than anything. They are SO supportive of me and my recovery and I would do anything for any one of those girls.
Finally, its been about 4 months since I’ve been successfully recovering, and turning my life around. Every single day is a struggle, but I don’t want to go back to where I was…
Only going up from here, living my life and enjoying each day to the fullest.
Those of you who have been by my side through everything, esp. my mom and best friend- thank you SO much, for everything. I love you, and couldn’t do any of this without you.