“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and exprect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on the the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you!” -Christian D. Larson
Thought thought was a nice quote. After everything I’ve been through, I know God has a plan for my life- its kinda crazy at times, but i’ve grown so much as a person from the hand i’ve been dealt. I’ve been hating being single lately, and getting frustrated with that, but I know/pray that He leads me to the person I should be dating- someone who is a support system, a role model, lover, yet possessing a bit of independence. I guess being single helps me learn about myself and what I need and want in a person, as well as what is important to me. I don’t care if you’re a boy or girl, black or white, young or old, skinny or fat: I’ll love you. Sometimes its just meant to be, and when I find you, i’ll know.
I was thinking about my next door neighbor having breast cancer, and realized that although it runs in my family, this is the first time i’ve been closely affected. Life is short. I’m scared of dying, and I’m scared of the world ending in my lifetime, the way everyone stresses the 2010 phenomenon. That’s next year. I love life- living and growing- it’sa amazing journey and I just don’t want it to end so soon. Maybe I’m crazy for thinking this way. A lot of people seek ‘heaven,’ or their respective form of life after death, as this place of happiness, where there is no pain, heartache, or any bad emotions- no hate, no fear, nothing. I can understand why that is desirable. However, because I’ve gone through so much in my life, constant struggles and curveballs thrown my way, I’ve learned to love that feeling of overcoming a hardship placed into my life. Its the BEST feeling for me to know that I’ve come up with a solution to a problem thats changed the plan I had in mind for my life. At the time, nobody likes struggling. It’s that feeling of overcoming adversity that feels SO good. Is it wrong that I want to keep living? I want to live until i’m old and wrinkled, having experienced so many different things and overcoming all the rough patches in my life. I want that to continue. What if people are right about 2010, and the world comes to an end? I won’t get to do all those things. It’s just weird to me, and maybe I’m crazy, but I can’t imagine things as all positive, happy, etc. [[some feedback would be nice]]-